Written on Flower Petals

Get to know me through my words

every day

it is the same.

Get used to being lonely, darling.

But isn’t this the freedom you wanted? 

The night has come to an end, darling.
Now we must, too.

Because the sky is not as blue as your eyes
Because the sun casts you in a sharp, stinging glow
And I feel the breathe leave the room
As your presence slowly slinks out
And it grows cold again.

But even these words, these words
They mean nothing
If I just blindly
Repeat them
Because they sounds pretty, because I have
Strung them together before and they,
And they worked then, but not now.
No, not now.

How many times can I write this?

How many times can I tell you

without sounding like 

shattered glass

is stuck

in my throat, ripping

the words out one by one?

-copyright Alina S.

NaPoWriMo Day 19 - small things

and you have to find happiness

in the smallest of ways.

mostly, because

that is the only thing left to do,

sometimes.

-copyright Alina S.

NaPoWriMo Day 18 - peaceful annihilation

kiss me

like you are

afraid

that

the world is

ending,

like you are

afraid

that

i will be gone

forever,

smitten into

gold dust that

twinkles in the

black, empty

space

that the

stars leave

between them.

-copyright Alina S.

NaPoWriMo Day 17

what is the point of life
when we all end up as dead
star dust, imbued in the ground or
scattered through the wind, or the ocean,
or some sentimental shit like that.
it doesn’t matter; the universe does not mourn your passing.

you will not be remembered.

-copyright Alina S.